October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month and I had personal expectations of posting daily here what I did daily on my Facebook page, Join Me at the Table. I’m going to try and catch up.
Daily I did recaps of my project, Spotlight on Survivors. Day one, I did myself.
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I stepped up first for this year’s project. When I was thinking about the interview questions I was reminded how long ago this young lady existed. This was 1977, right after high school graduation, college freshman, not where I wanted to be, but where I was. My beau was freshly home from USMC boot camp, we were both different, but tied to the past.
At this point there was no actual abuse, but it wasn’t a healthy relationship. We were both from dysfunctional homes, some good therapy would have done us both some good. Fast forward a few years and we were married, 2 babies, not enough money, lots of family drama and we were embedded in a very dangerous place.
So, answers to the interview with myself.
We were together for 12 years, dated about 3, married for 9, but only lived together for 2. (Couldn’t afford a divorce) The violence peaked in year 2 of the marriage. It needs to be remembered that this was long before there were laws against domestic violence, I didn’t ever call the police because of his family’s history with the police and my belief that police came to “bad homes” and I wanted to be a “good family”. The tactics were physical, emotional, and financial. I never sought any help from anyone. A family member saw bruises around my neck at one point but accepted a stupid excuse I gave without a second thought, quickly left.
Yes, the violence continued after we separated. But, the last significant physical attack led me to an opportunity to be successful apart. I went into work after a bad fight. My supervisor made me talk to the police so I didn’t say a resident at the nursing home beat me up. To say I was mad is an understatement. But, she also called a neighbor, in the middle of the night, to ask her to hire me at a local hospital. It happened the next day. My salary went up almost half. Me self esteem got the increase I needed.
So, what did I need to hear, to have?
Affordable housing and divorce options. I had no way of making either of those happen because, without a divorce, I had no child support. My kids and I had no insurance, and food was mostly supplied by family members. To be honest, I manipulated public assistance, several times.
But, before any of this, I needed education on relationships. What I lived in the shadow of as a child wasn’t healthy. Not violent, but far from healthy. I needed to have names given to what I was feeling.
Because of this is why I focused so much energy in schools. I hoped to give some words, not only to the students, but also to teachers in the room so they know they make a difference in the kid’s lives.
So, know, bosses, you can help. Know teachers, your input is valuable. Landlords, try and help those needing out. Family, reach out.
Day 2 will discuss resources.